I've been getting back into shifting recently. I know, and I feel a little crazy for it. I guess my life just feels so out of control and I want some of it back, y'know? I just want everything to be okay again. So I'm trying again.
july 15th
today i tried to meditate a little after i woke up. to i guess try and train my brain to get into the void state and also do astral projection or something. but because it was 10am my cousins were screaming (playing) and stuff.
i had a scary dream. that everyone left on vacation without me and then i trapped myself in a freezer to try and get attention from the police. but since i was too old (near adulthood) they didnt really care and i was left to sulk a little.
and second dream (i often have multiple per night) was about a murderous lady. she kidnapped and murdered a child and some of her close friends/family. she was put in this room with a mirror and they told her if she looked into it the spirits of those she killed would come back and kill her. she covered her eyes and smashed the mirrors to dust and screamed and was so. insane? like just tearing the room apart while trying to keep her eyes closed and covered. weird dream
